diff --git a/content/about.md b/content/about.md index a6356af..453f99c 100644 --- a/content/about.md +++ b/content/about.md @@ -1,17 +1,18 @@ --- title: About Me -description: Yes it's me Shockrah +description: Yes it's me Temper --- -## Who I am +## :question: Who I am -I'm Shockrah, a lad on the internet that likes to make stuff. I make candy, code, -and sometimes other random crafts. This site is where I post just some of the -highlights from what I'm working on. +I'm Temper, formerly Shockrah, a lad on the internet that likes to make stuff. +I make candy, code, and sometimes other random crafts. I do a lot more writing +on this page and post about technical things but more art related things go +on my other (main) site [:link: temper.tv](https://temper.tv) -## About the site - -Typically I just post about things that I'm working on or stuff I think might be -useful for myself or others. +## :monocle_face: What Do I Do? +I'm usually juggling a handful of projects at once but typically I'm bouncing +between, woodworking stuff, VR stuff, music, sewing, embroidery, and on occasion +I be doing a bit of photography :3 diff --git a/content/notes-ramblings.md b/content/notes-ramblings.md index 2820cdd..c9edb52 100644 --- a/content/notes-ramblings.md +++ b/content/notes-ramblings.md @@ -25,3 +25,4 @@ It's _very_ stream of concious-y and often not super coherent so often there gap ## Design things * :wave: [Bubble Chat and it's User Data](/notes/rationalizing-user-data) +* :wrench: [Agresssively Creating Things Again](/notes/agressively-creating-again) diff --git a/content/notes/agressively-creating-again.md b/content/notes/agressively-creating-again.md new file mode 100644 index 0000000..f7ec507 --- /dev/null +++ b/content/notes/agressively-creating-again.md @@ -0,0 +1,82 @@ +--- +title: Agressively Creating Again +description: null +date: 2026-06-20T01:16:06-07:00 +draft: false +category: article +--- + + +_welcome to a horridly constructed stream of conciousness spew of bullshit_ + + + +# A thought on Creating for the Sake of Myself + + +I've was sick for sometime prior to writing this and due to the huge amount of +time I spent rolling around on the rug that became my bed I had a renewed sense +of drive to actually create what I want. It's not really the time that I lost +during this period that upsets me but instead the desire to actually make +something and having no real way of actually doing those things. + +In the pursuit of actually trying for a goal I've had in my head for so long I +found myself becoming complacent with myself and ultimately I stopped trying. +Stopped trying to do anything of real meaning to myself: I was just going day +by day isolated in my little apartment becoming increasingly detached from +everything around me. + +## A dull mind serves me no purpose + +> Working on new projects that challenge my mind's ability to process and manipulate +> things has historically only resulted in far greater issues in the long run. + +When this happens I usually have to change my mindset going forward to make a kind +of course correction and ensure I don't completely lose grip on the space around +me. This is exactly what I realized I had to do as my sickness started to fade +and my energy went back to normal. The more I came back and came through the more +I saw how so many around me were allowing their minds to become dull and I just +did _not_ want to deal with the consequences of that sort of thing. + + +## Shaping space again and running this mind hard again + +As for what I've been creating it's a collection of things consisting of long +standing backlog items I never cleared and projects that I've dreamt of doing. +The small fixes include things like: + +* Cleaning off the balcony so it's work friendly +* Fixing the broken leg on my workbench +* Fixing up the cable management issue ( bunny keeps attacking wires ) +* Fixing my duffle bag zipper + +The main project's I've been wanting to tackle and actually have started: + +* Working on content to upload to my temper youtube page +* A new desk setup that isn't some cheapo setup from Ikea +* A new daily bag for carry stuff like my wallet, phone etc. + + +## But why constantly try to be productive + +I don't actually care about being productive but moreso because it feels nice +to express what's on my mind physically. For example the desk doesn't really +matter to me so much as the desire to express my idea of acceptable progress +towards some goal. + +To elaborate: I'm not good at traditional joinery techniques like making mortise +and tenon joints but I'm ok with making some really janky ones that still end +up being functional. Doing this and expressing it through the build and some +voice over gives me the opportunity to effectively gather like minded people on +the premise that: it's more important to attempt creativity in lieu of perfection. + + +## What now? + +Honestly I'm going to just keep chugging along with the stuff I'm working on. +Even though I hate being busy and brushing people off it seems that this has +happened to me 9999x times by now so to hell with it all. I'm just going to do +the things I want to do and if someone decides to pop up their head from the +sand and wants to do something cool I'll join them. + +